when music dies

We play hide and seek With our body With our minds With our existence We light up a smoke Mask the smell with a mouth freshner Meet someone and then never want to meet again Have one night stand Tell ourselves it never happened What is it that we hide? What is it that we seek? Death is When soul departs the body Tired of this game Are we walking dead?

Truth glares Minutes keep ticking Hammering inside brain Numb fingertips Pain grows subsides shoots Dark drops of blood Sudden tiredness Clouds the mind Shrouds the being Need some sleep Deep slumber bereft of touch smell Being one with void

Someday I’ll muster the courage Someday I’ll be able to challenge Someday I’ll have a faceoff Someday I’ll tear out the mask Someday I’ll show the mirror Someday I’ll do the litmus test Someday I’ll get over the fear of loss Someday I’ll gather the strength Someday I shall rest in peace…

Edges smoothen Urgency slows Eagerness abate Passion dwindles Craze shrinks Fervor fades Obsession reduces Zeal declines Urge dies Time ponders Life stops Deadlines pass...

Burn with fever Burn with guilt Burn with rage Burn with shame Burn with fear Burn with despair Burn with humiliation Burn with dissolution Burn with hope Burn with love Burn with excitement Burn with ecstacy Burn with past Burn with future Burn with burns

Fearless Carefree Fresh air Cool breeze Bright sunlight Don’t dream… Whispers Darkness Masks Suffocation Anxiety Nightmares Tears Living in shadows Keep rotting...

Empty mailbox Blank textbox Keyboard scatter Alphabets roll Thoughts obscure Eyes burn Vision blurs Fingers tremble Patience exhausts Faith diminishes Anxiety bouts Heart pounds Blood freezes Brain shuts How long?!

You look back You feel this is where I belong This is where I have always been When did I move on? Did I ever move on? Why did I? What happened? Time has changed Hours have changed Moments have changed Feelings have changed Perhaps we all have changed to a different being

Dark concentric circles Ever increasing edges Spasms in waves and spurts Sudden shooting pain Furious and frightful Blood trickles Drop by drop Being in love with pain Dangerous and addictive

Confusion chaos Confrontation Argument altercation Denial denial denial Lies and loads of lies Truth bares its fangs Anxiety and turmoil Need for relief Need for solace Need for peace Need for life Till then only numbness…

Silent moments Still and hollow Dark lonely night Words long lost No heartbeat Not even breathing Absolutely blank All seems vacant and void